It's been a while since my last update. Honestly, I really dont know what to do with this blog. I have so many things in mind, like what I really want to write about but everytime I hit the keyboard, everything just go away and ideas easily slipped. I have a lot of stories I wanted to write but suddenly got lost interest in finishing it. I have so many poems to share but felt that it doesnt even reflect me as a person. Like right now, my mind is uneasy. Unfocus. Undecided.
For the nth time, I'm planning to delete this blog because I don't see any reasons why should I keep one . It could give a lot of space in blogosphere for people who can really write. People who are more qualified to write and had the license to write.
Mine is just jibberish...
Before, I tend to write something that inspires people. I like writing stuff that will give them hope, encouragement and strength. But i realized, how can I write something that I myself can't do. I need to be a good example. I want to be that person that people look up to. I don't want to pretend or like put a mask and tell people that my life is always happy, and good and enjoying every bit of it. I also failed and I acknowledge it.
I remember in my Psychology class in college, we tend to discussed about how we present to the world. Psychologist Carl Jung called it Persona, which derived from a Latin word literally means "mask". It is not a literal mask, however. The persona represents all of the different social masks that we wear among different groups and situations. It acts to shield the ego from negative images. (paki connect na lang... lol)
Well, I am wearing a mask every single day. And even in this blog I wear a mask. It's not the real me.
My point is, I want to write something that reflects who I am. Maybe finding my niche would help. I am a personal blogger as I am claiming it. But I wanted more. I want something else.
So where do I start? What do you think?